Rock in a hard place

Sometimes in life we are put into situations where we have to choose things and/or make decisions that other people do not understand.  I have been put in one of those situations (and have been in it for a long while now) and it’s very trying…. I’m sure I will eventually go into details, but today is not that day.  Today I am only requesting positive vibes and prayers to be sent my way for me to feel at peace with my decision.  I’m confident it is right for everyone involved.

This morning I have been very goal focused…. And in focusing on my goals, I realized that my schedule is absolutely terrible at the moment…. I need to reorganize my time drastically and I’m going to use a bullet journal and daily planner to help me accomplish this.  Since I am a mother of three and a wife first and foremost, I feel that my family needs to be involved and informed of the changes that will be taking place.   I already  know of several blocks of time that I could do something constructive that are currently being used for social media/phone time….  I’m sure there are even more blocks of time that I can find to utilize for working toward my goals… So I will be logging my activities and how long I do them for the next week to get a firm grasp of all the time I spend being non-productive.  I am a creature of habit, but I do believe in the 21/90 rule… It holds very true as long as someone makes a firm commitment to changing their habits. If you aren’t knowledgeable of the 21/90 rule, it’s quite simple…. It takes 21 days of doing something to create a habit, but it takes 90 days to create lifestyle.  I’m very excited to see how much time I can make to use for constructive activities, but also nervous to see how much time I currently waste doing a bunch of nothing!  Haha!  We will see!

I totally forgot one of my best friend’s kiddo’s birthday party Sunday and I feel like a giant turd for it.  I try really hard to make sure I am good at taking care of everyone’s needs and I just don’t have enough of me to spread around sometimes…. I hate it.  I need to clone myself so that I have one more of me to help me out with this stuff.  I love my peeps so very much and love to spend time with them, and attend their events, and to just be there for their lives in general… I have to figure out a way to make it up to her…. I am already trying to come up with ideas.  She was totally understanding about my unexpected absence, while I’m so not okay with it…. I’m very blessed to have her.

I have wheels turning lately about another business I would like to get going in a few years and I’m so torn about what element should be the primary focus….  It’s hard when you want to do so many things! But there has to be a way to meld them together that makes sense…. I would like to start picking things up now so that when I’m ready to get it moving, I will already have a lot of stuff I need to make it happen…. Patience Kylie…. Patience.

I am at 6 weeks post-op Thursday, I am only 2 weeks away from being able to lift again…. I can’t wait to get my projects moving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is all for now…

Big hugs and lots of love,












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