This morning has been emotional for me… I am not sure if I overdid it yesterday or maybe all together, but I feel I’ve had a backslide on my healing. My incision is very sore and there’s some redness and heat coming from above it. Hopefully this is a good sign and I’m just being a baby, but I can’t help fearing the worst with it right now. I want to go back to work and normal life so bad. One week is a long ass time for someone as busy as I am…. It feels like I’ve been stuck like this forever now. God did not give me a lick of patience when he made me. I pray for it daily and I think he chooses to bless me with other virtues instead…. I’m going to focus on positives today and gratitude, I have to get this mindset turned around. Fingers crossed that this soreness and heat is a good healing sign, we don’t need any set backs right now!
I really like my doctor. Every time I see him, I grow even more fond of him. He seems like the kind of guy that would be a blast to have drinks with and pick his brain. He gets very amused with me and we sort of just go back and forth picking on each other. For those of you that don’t know me well, I say what’s on my mind regardless of what anyone thinks of it…. Whether it’s harsh or ridiculous, I have no shame. I have a tendency of having the jaw drop effect on people, which is hilarious to me! And I made his jaw drop at least three times at my appointment yesterday…. Hehehe….
My mother in law is leaving today and I’m sad to see her go. She is so much fun to be around. And, honestly… I’m terrified of how my house is going to look after she leaves…. Everyone here has been on good behavior and I totally give the credit for that on her presence. I will be praying for patience now a lot more I’m sure…. Exhale…………
I can’t pick up the baby right and it’s breaking my heart. He runs up to me and just hugs me and hangs on awaiting for me to be able to do it again. He’s being incredibly understanding of the situation and seems to just get it. He’s also showing a large amount of empathy. I can’t believe how smart this kiddo is! He just blows me away. Last night, he figured out a way to play with me even with my lack of mobility and it was AWESOME! He laughed and laughed and it made me feel so much better. It’s crazy how much I miss him even though he’s right here. Mommies need their babies just as much as they need their mommies! I think I have about another week before I can even attempt it, then I have to listen to my body as far as lifting is concerned…. Again… PATIENCE.
Today is going to be a good day no matter what… Because I say so! Ha!
Im done venting for now!
Big hugs and lots of love,